THE BEE GEES--FIRST OF MAY
这并不是五月,可是却选了这首歌
怀念五月,怀念掉落在发间的樱
孤独.孤独.这天杀的孤独
所有的人,一个,一个..慢慢地离开
一只孤独的小鸟,安静的蹲在夜晚的灯光下,不再飞翔
或许是我的翅膀折断了
或许是我的心折断了



非常讨厌某人1拉拢极力拉拢我和某人2,也非常讨厌某人2一副跟我很亲密的样子,我其实一点也不想跟你做朋友
我非常讨厌你们的自以为是
想对1说的话:
我知道你和2是好朋友,也知道他是好人,但不一定我就要喜欢他,跟他做好朋友,甚至于谈恋爱
而且,我也非常讨厌我们四个人,我,你,你男朋友和他一起,因为这样在一起的时候,我很难受,难受到快要维持不了笑脸
我宁愿孤单

已经工作三个月了啊．．．
今天忽然想到已经很久没来这里了
看到了阿柯的留言，其实也不是很忙，但是一直没有心情静下来写我的心情，因为我也不知道自己现在是怎么了
很多事情，想做的，不想做而又必须做的，责任，自由等等等等，一直在那里徘徊
我也说不清的感觉，也不知道该做什么，所以就这么混着日子
今天，一个同学辞了工作去旅行了，真好啊
不想说了，就这样了，谢谢你，阿柯，谢谢关心我的朋友

i think i'm really gonna crazy.
all these days, i've done nothing except watching these bloody dramas.
i can "sou sou" with my instant noodles in front of those bloody and disgusting bones, even more skulls
i don't know how can i do this
it's amazing, isn't it? 'cause i used to faint because of seeing blood
why would i become so? i don't know.
maybe there are too many things. they confuse me. they make me believe it's none of my business
reality is horrible. it tortures us, makes us cool
i hate it, but i'm learning to fit it, i know, i can't do anything to change it
then, someday, i will be part of it....
yesterday, i cried. i was suprised. i thought i would never cry anymore
i thought i've learnt how to deal things except crying. i thought i have been cool enough
but i cried. that makes me happy, very happy
i believe i have not lost those things i treasured a lot